I wish I had been able to laugh at myself more when I was younger. And by younger, I mean when I was a teenager and young adult. I was far too self-conscious and took myself far too seriously when I was a younger woman.
I am by nature, a serious person, and sometimes, one simply cannot be someone she's not, but I still wish I'd learned to laugh at myself and realize when I was being a dope. It's coming easier now. I've learned that is life after dope-dom.
Taking ourselves too seriously and being obsessed with performance comes out of a heart that does not properly understand who she is before God. It is a sign that perhaps I am not finding my sufficiency in Christ. The fascination about always being right and fearing to be wrong is pride, pure and simple. And it makes it hard for us to laugh off our own silliness. And we're all silly at times.
Sometimes, I don't even think we realize that we're not basing our identity in Christ, that we're actually worried about how we look to others. It can be so subtle.