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Learning not to care

Since the early part of February, there's been more than the regular amount of stress in my life. This has frustrated me, because tomorrow, I am going to my very first seminary class. I should be excited about that, but the stress of the past number of weeks has occasionally overshadowed that. I've never been great at handling stress, and it's quite humbling to realize at the seasoned age of 50 that I'm much worse than I believed.

In the midst of all of this, I found myself really not caring one bit about blogging, whether it was posting here or reading blogs. Oh, I continue to read my favourite few, the ones who've been with me for a long time. They're friends; both the blogs and the writers. But as for some of the other things going on in my social media feed, I felt a big, fat "I just couldn't care less about this." In some instances, I had the uncharitable thought, "What a silly thing to be going on and on about on social media!" I just didn't care. I found myself thinking one night that I don't care if I ever write another good blog post, or get linked by Famous Blogger, or even get a "Great post" comment on my blog again. I just wanted the stressful situation to be over with. And I want to be fully focused for the next three days as I attend seminary.

Yesterday, I had an appointment with the student I'm tutoring. After our time was done, his mother came into chat, and we had a nice visit, as we always do. She's a lovely lady. I shared with her some of the things going on, and she prayed with me. It was the balm I needed. She gave simple, sincere, loving words of prayer for me, and I left feeling refreshed. I thought, "This is the real stuff. This is the kind of thing I really care about." I had similar feelings this week when friends emailed me to ask how I'm doing, knowing that the past few weeks have been a little unruly. Unsolicited, "Hey, how are you doing?" is also the real stuff.

I'm not saying I don't care about this blog or Out of the Ordinary. But sometimes, when stress comes along, it can make me evaluate just how important some things are. Sometimes, it's okay to not care about blogging for a while. It's even okay to not care about what the latest and greatest bloggers are talking about. Sometimes, it's okay to hunker down and memorize Psalms, read the Puritans, and re-read J.I. Packer's Knowing God.

My prayer for today is that I will benefit greatly from these classes I'm about to take. I continue to pray for the removal of stressful situations. I'm praying one of my favourite Psalms:

Be still and know that I am God
I will be exalted among the nations
I will be exalted in the earth! (Ps. 46:10)


Inwardly digest

From The Collects of Thomas Cranmer:

Blessed Lord, which hast caused all holy Scriptures to be written for our learning; grant us that we may in such wise hear them, read, mark, learn, and inwardly digest them; that by patience and comfort of thy holy word, we may embrace and ever hold fast the blessed hope thou has given us in our Saviour, Jesus Christ.


Lifting Up Our Hearts - 22

Rescued from the Darkness of Death
Malachi 1:1-6

Grant, Almighty God,
that as thou hast not only designed
to give us a life in common with this world
but hast also separated us
from the other heathen nations
and illuminated us
by the Sun of Righteousness,
Thine only begotten Son,
in order to lead us
into the inheritance of eternal salvation --

O grant that,
having been rescued from the darkness of death,
we may ever attend to that celestial light
by which Thou guidest and invitest us to Thyself.

And may we so walk as children of light,
as never to wander
from the course of our holy calling,
but to advance in it continually,
until we shall at length
reach the goal Thou has set before us,
so that having put off all the filth of the flesh,
we may be transformed
into that ineffable glory,
of which we have now the image
in Thine only begotten Son. Amen. 


Lifting Up Our Hearts - 21

Eternal Election - Malachi 2:10-12

Grant, Almighty God,
that as we are so inclined
to all kinds of wickedness,
we may learn to confine ourselves within the limits
of Thy Word and thus restrain
all the desire of our flesh;
and that whatever Satan may contritve
to draw us here and there,
may we continually proceed
in obedience to Thy Word,
and being mindful of that eternal election
by which Thou has been pleased
to gratuitously to adopt us
and also through that calling by which
Thy eternal election has been confirmed,
and by which Thou has received us
in Thine only begotten Son,
may we go on in our course to the end,
and so cleave, by persevering faith,
to Christ Thy Son,
that we may at length be gathered
into the enjoyment of that eternal kingdom
He has purchased for us
by His blood. Amen 


Lifting Up Our Hearts - 20

From the Lowest Depths - Ezekiel 17:24-18:4

Grant, Almighty God,
since thou hast not only created us out of nothing
but hast designed to create us again
in Thine only begotten Son,
and hast taken us from the lowest depths
and designed to raise us to the hope
of Thy heavenly kingdom:

Grant, I say, that we may not be proud
or puffed up with vainglory;
but may we embrace this favor with becoming humility,
and modestly submit ourselves to Thee,
until we become at length
partakers of that glory
Thine only begotten Son has acquired for us. Amen.