I love fall. It's my favourite time of the year. With the changes in colour, it is an amateur photographer's dream. As I drove to school on Thursday morning, I passed scene after scene which would make beautiful pictures. There was a gentle mist hovering over the fields, some of which still hold their soybeans. A little valley along the west side of the road was covered with a more dense mist that was lit up by the pink sky. I wished I had my camera. Technically, I could carry my camera with me everywhere, and one year, when I took a picture every day for 365 days, I did. But there is no time right now to stop and take pictures when I have to be in class by 8:30. I have a very picturesque drive, along a river road, and there are any number of places to stop, and on Thursday, I felt a little sad that my picture taking time has all but disappeared.
And then I arrived at school, and the discussion was full of interesting tidbits. My classmates and I are getting to know each other. Two of the other women and I enjoyed the seminary student lunch together after a really edifying chapel time. We planned to meet up next Thursday, when D.A. Carson will be the featured speaker at our school's annual Preaching Lecture Day. When I got home, there was a cute puppy waiting to pounce on me, and an older dog wanting in on the welcome home action, too. When you have pets, you do need to give them attention. I'm definitely of the mind that when you buy a puppy, you ought to play with him.
My kids will be home at some point for Thanksgiving dinner. There is a turkey to cook, and pies to be baked and vegetables to be prepared. Picture taking time, despite the vast potential for gorgeous pictures, will wait. I will squeeze some time in to work on my Augustine class. I have two papers due on October 22nd. I have been studying about 4 hours each day; not all at once, but throughout the day. I should be studying more. I feel behind with the Augustine class. I'm thankful there are no classes this week, so I can spend the week working on the other class. I wonder how my classmate, who is taking five classes, is managing.
You just can't have it all. In order for me to do well in my school work, it has to be a priority. And I want to do well. Why spend the money if you're not going to give it your all? I've waited years for this opportunity; I'm not going to waste it. My cameras sit on the shelf, waiting to be picked up, and when Christmas break comes, I plan to do just that, but right now, the books take precedence. Next Sunday, I have to teach Sunday school, and I have to squeeze that in, too.
There is the feeling that you can have it all. And there is a feeling that we should be able to have it all. But choosing one thing means sacrificing something else. I have not worked outside the home since 1989.That meant we didn't have a lot of things. We've never been to Disneyland. We did not buy cars for our kids. Our kids have student debt because we could not afford to have $40,000 for each child to finish university. But compared to most of the world, we were extremely well-off. Had I worked outside the home, there would have been other sacrifices.
I began followng a Facebook page of Canadian Landscape photography. The site is full of exquisite pictures of the fall colours. Yesterday, as I looked at a few of them, I longed to to out in the warmth of the afternoon and spend a few hours (because taking photographs is not a quick and easy endeavour) outside. But I did not do that. I washed my kitchen floor, did the laundry and read out on the deck so I could ensure my puppy didn't dig his way to China in my flower bed. It was a good day. The camera, and more beautiful pictures will wait. And on this Thanksgiving weekend, I'm very thankful.